Thank you.

I get the feeling this isn't the first time I titled a post "thank you," but I don't think you all hear it enough, considering how much you've given me. I had no hopes for any benefit coming out of that previous post, beyond at least getting the task of posting something off my plate. But the response I received—it absolutely floored me. I didn't think it was possible for comments and emails to help me that much. Just to be able to explain this weird place I'm in was an immense relief, but also knowing that so many of you are out there, rooting for me? I can't even begin to describe what you did. That night was the first time since I came home that I managed to eat any sort of actual food. So thank you, thank you, wonderful people. If I could write you all individual thank-you notes on the extra-good stationery I save for special occasions, I would surely do so. But let's face it, I'm too lazy for that, and I don't know your addresses. It's just not practical. Try and understand.

So. Somehow I managed to write a Wonderland post this week. It may make a little bit of sense. No guarantees, of course.

Comments

[jaelithe]

I hope you keep feeling better.

If you don't keep eating, I may have to send you some cookies . . .

[kristen verity]

So that you know, I don't read only for the laughs but for "you," er, I read your blog because you put into words so much of what I can't. And you do it well. Your articulation of things happy or sad, epic or poetic are why I keep checking in.

"The joy is not the same without the pain."

[Christa]

Hi Alice.

Just wanted to say that I am truly sorry that you have had a miscarriage. It is a horrible horrible experience. I had a few miscarriages and also had premature twin daughters who died. I got to see and hold them and that helped.I spent years and years waiting to 'get over it'. It dawned on me one day that I wasn't ever going to. This helped too. What happened then, is that I learned to live with it.I also thought when my daughters died that I would not be able to survive such pain, let alone be happy again.Well I am happy. My grief is my tribute to all my lost babies. It still jumps up and bites me on the bum sometimes, but like I say, I am happy.I did go on to have two healthy, gorgeous children now aged 20 and 17.

I wish you well and hope that the love and good vibes that I am sending across the ocean, reach you.

HugsChrista xxxBristol UK.

[Summer Saldana]

http://lemusingsofmoi.blogspot.com/2008/04/thou-shalt-not-worry.html

My own story...in brief.

I hope things are improving for you!