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How to Endure and Possibly Triumph Over the Adorable Tyrant
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Doctor's orders

I took one of those depression-quiz thingies online today, and out of 45, my score was 42. I win at depression! Which I guess means I lose at life right now.

Right now. I'm stressing that. This day is not so good. Yesterday was bad. Today is even so much worse, like you would not believe. And yet I'm hanging on. No choice in the  matter, after all.

My doctor has prescribed, in addition to an increase in the medication that I am not 100% sure is working in the first place, a complete work stoppage for the next two weeks. No work. That means no blogging, which I argued was not "work," per se, but he argued back that it does in fact tax my already limited mental/emotional reserves, which I can't argue with. It is staggeringly hard to think right now. Plus it's like the keyboard designers TRIED to make it harder for us to type. I have to put so much muscle into it!

In addition to not working, I have been commanded to entertain myself like it's my job, until (please yes soon?) the meds are working. I just finished watching "Eat Pray Love" on Netflix. Julia Roberts has such a veiny face! I found the movie smug (not surprising) but diverting.

So while I won't be updating with much of anything for the next two (2!) weeks, I will be checking in. And if you have any ideas for non-challenging, soothing diversions, I am all eyes. And appreciative (if mis-firing) brain. I love you guys. I kind of mean that, like a lot.

Reader Comments (178)

OK, I found somewhere for you to go stand up paddleboarding from Brooklyn. I am SHOCKINGLY uncoordinated (like could not join the marching band in college because I could not play an instrument while walking without injuring myself) and I found it really easy to do and it is like meditating - so calm and relaxing but also more satisfying than a walk or sitting on the couch.

May 13, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterMargaret

I have working my way thru the complete Rocky & Bullwinkle, Homicide Life on the Street and Jeeves and Wooster box sets. I would also recommend extra doggie and outside time (except if it actually rains for the next 10 days like predicts) and as much comfort food and guilty pleasures (whatever yours are) as possible.

Hang in there. I hope you're feeling better soon. You bring so much joy into other people's lives, you certainly deserve it for yourself.

BTW, I bought Let's Panic for my nephew's wife after she had her first child and she said it was the funniest thing ever, raved about it on her facebook page and now thinks I'm a person of extremely good taste and a "cool" auntie. Thanks!

May 13, 2011 | Unregistered Commenternycwhofan

Netflix has all kinds of fantastic things on instant watch right now, love! I am on the second season of Scrubs right now, and there are so many seasons! So many seasons, Alice!

Also, I like you.

I've been through depression off and on and off and on for years and years and, well, pretty much my whole life. If you want to talk, y'know, I'm online like seven hundred hours a day.

May 13, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterKat

Here is a list of 176 pleasant things you can do:

It's taken from a therapy called Dialectical Behavior Therapy, so it's not just random stuff

May 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterRC

So sorry that you've been feeling bad. Two words for fluffy yet engrossing entertainment: Vampire Diaries. Plus pretty boys!!!

May 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterHer Ladyship

During one of my worst, most depressive periods of my life - I was totally distracted by the movie Role Models. It's stupid. It's wrong. It's so freaking HILARIOUS.

I was so depressed I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't stop obsessing. But that movie would shut everything off and I'd roll around on the floor laughing hysterically.

Eat, Pray, Love is smug. By the time she hit Bali I turned it off in disgust. Harf.

May 15, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterJaci

I posted a few days ago but somehow it doesn't seem to have stuck. I suggested getting a facial. I have had exactly one, but it was one of the most relaxing experiences I have ever had, and I left there feeling refreshed and strangely jubilant.

Also, I think you are wonderful and wish we were friends in real life. But not in a creepy, Mr. Belvedere's Fan Club way.

May 15, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterJessica

all that work that your hair did and now it's thunder is stolen by depression. ughhh....

hope the 2 week brain freeze helps. good vibes to you.

May 15, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterlori


when i'm feeling lowly, i want to return to Stars Hollow...Gilmore Girls.

May 15, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterlori

I totally agree about Veronica Mars. If you're into sci-fi, you might appreciate the new Dr Who as well. There are five seasons available for streaming on NetFlix currently. And if you feel up to reading, check out Laurie Notaro. She's laugh out loud funny. And surround yourself with things that make you smile whether it's fresh flowers or a well-loved collection of stuffed animals. Just remember, this too will pass. Much love!

May 16, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterCari

Download an audiobook (Harry Potter is, of course, objectively excellent, but in my darkest hours I turn to "A Wrinkle in Time"), set your laptop up in the bathroom, run a bath, turn out the lights.

May 16, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterHelgel

I don't often comment here...but today I will make an exception. Please take care of yourself and I hope that your Netflix diversion helps.

I would highly recommend some Monty Python.

May 16, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterSherri

Am just saying hi, since you're checking in and all. Hope you're taking the time to enjoy the stuff we never get to enjoy. And mostly the rain. Because it has a way of making you slow down when we need it most.

May 16, 2011 | Unregistered Commentermom101

Whatever the diversion, try not to let verbal thoughts enter your mind.

May 17, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterErol

Go get the fixings for White Russians, and watch The Big Lebowski. Really!

May 17, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterSarah

Man, what test is that? Because I want to take a test that's going to render me unworkable, too!

May 17, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterThe BabbyMama

I really enjoy your blog and wish you all the best in the next 2 weeks. What I do when I need a break: - I download audio books and just go out walking. I meander through neighborhoods or I head to the woods, a park, or the beach. When I need a break from walking, I also just get on a train or bus and go somewhere or nowhere in particular. I also go to touristy spots (museums, zoos, etc.) in their off days during the week. For good listens, I suggest Tina Fey's new autobiography. I also recommend the WTF podcast by comedian Marc Maron.

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterJen

I miss you, Alice! Thank god you're still on Twitter. Love to you!

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterSarah Berry

Hey girl, been through it before. I know this is crazy advice and not what anyone else is saying. I didn't actually do this, because I didn't think of it until I was already feeling better, but what you need is something to make you FEEL. A movie or book won't make you feel enough - and won't let you get the escape you need. Try something big. Along the lines of skydiving or bungee jumping - of course not that extreme if you aren't so inclined - but something that will force extreme emotion and a focus on something other than your depression for a few minutes.

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterLisa

I'm so sorry you're having a bad spell of depression. Take the time to do the things you love that lift your spirits and forget super-competitive gym classes. (That's one of the perks of being an adult - you can choose which fitness things to do rather than being forced into fitness-induced inadequacy!) You and your psychiatrist will find the right combination of meds, it just takes a little time for them to kick in. Your readers love you and we'll be waiting when you get back. :) We seem to go through similar things at the same time and your writing always helps me to find the humor in and laugh my situations. :)

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterLaura

Wow. I just found your site. What a lovely outpouring of care, suggestions and concern. One more suggestion--take it all in slowly. Whatever you try, do it for a little bit of time. Read three comments from your adoring fans. Walk around the block. Reach down and touch your toes.

Right now I'm dealing with anxiety so before sleeping and upon waking, I think of three things I'm grateful for. This morning's gratitude: coffee, today's another chance and I managed to think three positive things last night. It's not a lot, but my shoulders are no longer residing up near my ears. Take good care.

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterDeborah

I know how you feel. I've dealt with depression my entire life. Luckily, pills work very well for me. I denied it for years. So glad I have a caring husband that stuck by and demanded I get help.

Hang in there. Take care of yourself. Get lots of sunshine! When I get down, I hide in my home. I've learned that I HAVE to force myself to get out. It always makes me feel better.

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterAmy

Maybe you should ask your psychiatrist about a mood stabilizer like Lamictal?

May 18, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterAlly

Hi! Just checking in and letting you know that I'm thinking about you.

Have you ever watched "Keeping up appearances"? It's funny! Maybe it will entertain you?

May 19, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterRoxanna

Hey, Alice, I just came by again to say hello. If you are doing well today, then yay! And if not, hold on a little longer. You'll get there. I hope you have been able to let yourself rest.

Another diversion, should you be needing one - old school Boggle. If my brain hurts too much, I just quit trying to find words and watch the sand drain into the downside of the timer. Very, very relaxing.

Take care.

May 19, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterTana

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